War between dreams

By: Chalbina Salam
Ever since I was tiny, I have always wanted to be an actress. Well! If you ask me why I want to be an actress? Putting the entire glamor aside, I would love to serve and entertain the public or what we say in the right terms – “THE VIEWERS.” Just like any other child growing up, I did less research on what are the things required to be an actress – all I knew was – I want to be out there on the big screen.
Truth be told, Even though I am in that game of glamor and attention, I didn’t have the courage to fight back the disapproval from my family as they are not at all interested in me going to that line of life. Secretly in public – IT’S NOT JUST MY MAMA AND PAPA – the whole YAINGANGPOKPI seem to not like the idea of me being in that line at times. Honestly – it’s not seemed – I know that I don’t like it at all. Because of all the pressures around me, I at times think that I won’t be able to reach the tip which I want to touch and at best – STAY. But as a human, that to the other side of the gender where less seems to not care what she wants as long as she is good in cooking.
I am not lying but – sometimes when I look in the mirror, I really feel beautiful. I am not saying I am perceptual but what I feel is under my lock-up so YES, I feel great with the way my almighty crafted me. My smile – OHH! I can WOO millions on a big screen. Again, when reality telecasts – there I am, scared to even SHOUT that – I WANT TO BE AN ACTRESS, funny but yeah – I am scared.
With all these blanketing me, I at times run out of ideas on how to convince my parents but then, in the midst of these struggles – ANYHOW strategy came into existence. It all started during lockdown, and before the continue – let me introduce some dear ones of mine to you readers. Jenibas and Urmila are two of my many cousins. Continuing, during lockdown – I went to Jenibas with my aunt and Urmila. There I overheard a conversation of Jenibas participating in a dance competition, then during the running conversation – my aunty told me to join as well. I was afraid to admit at first thinking this would be another ignition of a war in my house but you know – with no second thought I said YES. I went into it.
Ever since then, I have participated in so many events – be it for dance or acting without the notice of my parents. But you know – how long can I hide from the old tiger and the old tigress? They caught me during some cut-throat discussion in the house, at first I thought I might be thrown out of the house but it all seemed to all work out.
I know – my words might seem simple and linear but trust me – having the courage to take decisions at times with eyes closed really does a milestone push in life. Thank you so much for reading the first article of my life.
(The writer is a class 9 student of Emmanuel English Academy, Yaingangpokpi).